You say you have no family now,
You say we left you, you're on your own and saying you should be alone.
I've suffered to know the things that you do,
And I tell myself that it can't be true.
You try to explain that it's not 'a choice'
But I've seen through your lying voice.
You curse the one who takes my pain saying that
He is the one who made you this way.
But in your flesh, who else should you blame
For such a stinging shame as this?
Your eyes are so blind to miss His love and grace -
The only one that can save you from this misery you face.
I don't think a child could ever truly hate their parent,
and I could never hate you, but please, tell me there is still hope.
How can I stop caring?
Why do I want to?
All these sleepless nights have haunted me for years...
And if I am as strong as people do say,
Then why can I not fight down these choking tears?
After all this time, how can I feel so lost?
My dear Lord, give me direction.
Show me the peace that passes all my understanding.
Teach me to love, and to forgive.
Lord God, I know you'll never leave me,
And I thank you...for being the only Father I have left.